Hi, a few of you may remember me a few may not. My partners and I started up a YouTube channel to help promote City of Heroes via the sometime mini-game of badge collecting. If you don't know my vids, that's ok, but here's some links to some of them:
Intro Vid (Man, I was Green):
http://tinyurl.com/m99lghgTitan Weapons Launch:
http://tinyurl.com/lqrfmvxRelaunch of Channel Vid (Sadly, Fillmed Two Days Prior to the Announcement):
http://tinyurl.com/lmuz5ydWhy am I here showcasing all this?
Unfortunately, I have fallen on hard times. Back in November I was thrown out on the street (sadly by family) because I could not come up with a job fast enough (3 months) to support the insane rent they wanted to charge ($1500 for a single room with no facilities attached.) The night before I was tossed out I became physically ill and had to be taken to the hospital. I attributed it to nerves and to some extent it was that. What i truly faced was a life threatening illness and because of it I decided to move on so I could combat the illness rather then continue somewhere filled with rampant abuse.
Since then I have conquered one illness, but the mental trauma I underwent revealed something horrid. I am bipolar and unable to even afford health coverage to get the meds needed to fight the rapid mood swings associated with it. A few weeks ago, when I discovered just how serious things had become I began making a list of what needed to happen.
1) Get out of my current environment, which is full of negative memories and triggers. My goal is to get back home to my daughter and friends in California. Unfortunately, that means a job and roof there. I have 20+ years of management experience under my belt, but it has been a bare getting people to take notice of me when I'm not even in the same state.
2) While job hunting (and padding my bank account with my minimum wage day job) I intend to work heavily toward evolving my YouTube Channel into a potential job replacement. Of course, the Channel is something I will work on in the wee hours of the morning since right now the channel is not a job and I need something tangible sooner rather than later.
While playing City of Heroes I followed quite a few in the community that also made some phenomenal showcases (Dark Respite and Energy One as examples.) But even back in my fledgling days I had the voices telling me "not to try" or that "you're a failure" so I didn't push hard enough and even let my channel languish in obscurity.
This is where all of you come into play. I've seen some heroics come out of the community. And that is the main reason I love each and every one of you. I need advice, I need help, I need a way home. Where I am now is not home and is, in fact, linked back to the abusive environment I left to protect my health.
I'm looking for Subs on the YouTube Channel, which has already started to evolve. The main problem here is the computer I do my work on is a laptop and pretty old by today's standards. However, replacing it must wait until I have the means. What I really need help with is spreading the word about the channel.
Tooth & Tail (A YouTube Radio Drama):
https://youtu.be/Y7dxkTNgj3sChapter One (Why We Pick Up Books):
https://youtu.be/WJ3KoqlQXugI'm also looking for ideas on how to get home (the far important important goal to me.) Every day I'm here is another battle, mentally, and I'm shocked each time I make it through one. Job Leads (via personal message) would be great. Same with a place to hang my hood every night. It has been a genuine struggle for me and what I need now is a miracle. What better place to look then to the heroes that once helped me protect Paragon City.
