I also one who is struggling and watching the kibun thread
This is a rough week for everyone the initial ra ra warm and fuzzy has worn off...now we know this is going to be a long and difficult slog...we are all trying to cope however we can and realizing just how much this world and community mean to us.
There are plans in the works but no real immediate activities to take part in and there is a lot of waiting.
When I can't deal anymore I go watch COH video and remember no matter what that much will still exist and all of you will to because this community is stronger then this. Or I write a new song/poem - some of them are very very angry and will only appear if we reach a very dark hour indeed...others are hopeful and may be worthy of polishing up.
My husband and I are both struggling with this situation (we are both coh gamers although he has yet to officially join titan) and yet we must go about our daily lives without lashing out or breaking into tears...here in this forum and on the game we all understand for this village knows the pain we all feel.
It is going to get harder before it gets easier....people including me are going to lose our perspective from time to time, be blinded by emotions, or acting like a block of ice because feeling hurts to much at that moment.
For many of us the game is our prefered way to cope with pain and stress be that emotional or physical...it is our renewal, or escape, and a place where almost everyone is a friend...and we are all in pain because this death is to quick and to short for proper preperation yet to long for a quick catharsis. We can visit the dying loved one in the hospital but there is no last great adventure to plan only a series of visits while we fight desperately on the side for a miracle.
What hurts worse is the "doctor" in question has many more treatments to try but they put our world in hospice because they won't take our insurance.
We are going to try our damndest here to change that...and help in any way you can. But meanwhile go do your ingame bucket lists just in case, hold torches, do the events, go on missions, use sentinal plus to save your characters even if it is only to give them a proper eulogy <sniffle> because we may just pull of a miracle even after november 30th there is always a chance that we save even a tiny piece of this world....and if not cling to whatever lifeboat we have be it videos, chat rooms, screen caps, these forums, songs...or work on plan z...because we ARE going to have a future. Remember breaking us means they win...we will not let them win we are a community that fights monsters and saves or takes over the world. We are also a community that understands hard choices, redemption, and shades of grey.
So when someone falters or needs a helping hand, whether its a new member, or an old one...don't be afraid to listen to them vent....give them a hug, tell them you hear them, gently redirect negativity into healing or constructive activity. We know each other pretty well at this point we all have strengths and weaknesses, good days and bad, tolerance for stress, thresholds of rage and sorrow...anytime you run out someone always has a "hope" inspiration waiting
All we have is each other, we are family, we are the survivors of Paragon and we have not yet BEGUN to fight.
